My hormons were acting crazy & after testing and waiting it turned out to be a Psychological problem.
Apparently, I worry to much, about life & it's lugguge.
So my mother started lecturing me about how I should relax & let everything go as gods' will.
I said well O.K! Talk is easy, act is hard!
Logically, most people on earth have something to worry about, especially when you get envolved into life & start thinking about alot of aspects.... (except ICE PEOPLE, they are not taken into consideration. ;p )
You think about:
- How close your dreams became & how are you working on fullfiling them.
- Is it really the time that you have kids & become a mother? and if so how good of a mother will you be if all you remember about motherhood in the past 14 years is all bullshit, battles and war techniques!!!
- What the fuck did you get yourself in working in the government where you'll die slowly & no one will really notice.
- Will you ever get a house or will you live in rent forever?!
- Will you ever get a decent car or will you stay on charity forever?
- Will you fuck the money or would the money fuck you?
- Will your husband be there after 20 years or will you be alone with a bunch of kids kicking & fighting to make a life.
- Will you have the dream job that you've always dreamt of or will you die trying ?!
- Is life gonna be fair at the highest point of joy it will bang you on the head from a place you never knew exsited & then laugh at you!?
- Above all of that, I hate the in the injustice i witness in the world, every day it gets uglier & uglier. The rage I feel makes me wanna vomit.
I think a psychological reason is better than a phsyological.
I should learn to relax, then try to make the world a better place.
on the other side,
Mom was worried about me.
Sis was worried about me.
My dearest friend, mariam was worried about me.
My husband was worried about me.
All of that is a relief. I have my cure. I have my people.
I'll be better inshallah.
P.S: A trip to the maldives islands would make me much much better & more relaxed ;p
1 comments:
Allah ye3enich sis .. sometimes I wish I can take it all away, but I can't ... I guess it's life and you have to struggle ... but I know you'll make it either way :D
For sure, where ever you turn, you'll always see me, even when you don't want to ;P
speaking of trips ... I have few ideas ... ;D LV U
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